WHAT DO I WANT TO DO?

These days, I feel like I don't even know what I wanna do. When I was in college, I was always dreaming about my future, but in that future, I always omitted something: what kind of person do I wanna be? The only thing that I thought at that time was my career, my job, money...

Recently, I kind of feel like that I realized something really important: I have to concern about other things, not just money, job, or my career... THIS MOMENT. I can't live my life again. This moment is just one-time only. Once you passed some point of your life, you can't go back and live it again, no matter how much money you have.

I do admire luxury life: well-paid job, well-fitted designer suit, super car... all about money. On the other hand, I do love hanging out, traveling to a new country without any plan, ... For some people, both of them are just kind of easy to get since his/her family is rich enough, so that he doesn't have to care about money, but I can't get both of them at the same time without some big luck. What I'm thinking these days is, if it's that hard to get both of them, which one would be the first priority in my life? For me, almost 50:50. Maybe I will choose one of them someday, but I don't wanna lose anyone of them. Is there any way that I can enjoy my life in my own way without any hard-working? maybe no... so sad... T_T